He gave me a hug tonight, I picked him off the ground. It was actually so funny because I’m so insecure and didn’t want him to yeah so I picked him up so he let go. He was laughing so much and awh tonight was cute. I kind of realized tonight that I’m kind of well…I can’t say it.

Jeff’s birthday was last week and I was in Australia at the time, so being me I brought him so gifts. He wasn’t at work last night calling in ‘sick’, redhead disease i’m thinking. Anyway, I feel actually too pathetic and yeah, so if he doesn’t turn up tonight i’m going to either give it away or chuck it. I get embarrassed easily, okay? I guess I’m typing this because I freaked myself out last night, I realized I missed the guy. I know while I was thinking about him in bed last night he was thinking about her in bed last night. I’ve liked him for over a year now, which sucks a whole lot but yeah. I’m going to shut up now because this is just way too pathetic, ugh.